Personal Awareness


I have seen the task which God has given the sons of men with which to occupy themselves. He has made everything appropriate in its time. He has also set eternity in their heart, yet so that man will not find out the work which God has done from the beginning even to the end. I know that there is nothing better for them than to rejoice and to do good in one's lifetime; moreover, that every man who eats and drinks sees good in all his labor — it is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will remain forever; there is nothing to add to it and there is nothing to take from it, for God has so worked that men should fear Him. (Eccl 3:10-14)

It has taken me 78 years to come to a realization of who I am in God's eyes. I'm not thinking in terms of soteriology or Christology or even theology, but simply my soul under the sun. Why did He put me here? Why am I who I am? What has He done so that I am who I am? The first great mystery in life is defining ourselves in light of reality and the second is how to accept who we are in light of God's truth. This is what James is saying when he exhorts his readers to "(be) Humble [Passive Voice] in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you." (James 4:10)

It seems the only way one can be humble in the presence of the Lord is by living out the Word of God over time, allowing it to instruct us and give us wisdom and understanding, and then correcting the image reflected of ourselves when we see ourselves from God's mirror. Then, and only then, are we able to see clearly who we are and why we are here from God's point of view.

But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy. And the seed whose fruit is righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace. (James 3:17-18)